My best friend, Beki and I have been best friends since we were 12 years old. We’ve been talking a lot this year, just having our little accountability talks, even though we’ve been friends for over 40 years. Sometimes, you know, they’re always there, but sometimes you just don’t talk for a while. But then you talk and then it’s like if yesterday.

This year, we decided to have a weekly call, which has been so helpful. We had little goals of what we wanted to stop. For example, I wanted to stop scrolling on Instagram so much and drink less wine. At 64, my body just didn’t want it anymore. I started to read more and make a lot of changes. Talking to Becky has been so helpful as an accountability partner.

I was sharing with her what I was doing this week with my website and my business cards, wanting to activate this new project. Even though it’s something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, I just didn’t sit down and focus due to my busy work and other life happenings around the family.

I said, you know, we’re just such searchers. And then it dawned on me, all this life, we’re searching for peace, peace of mind, calm, well-being, balance, happiness, and joy. But it’s not about searching for that. It’s about discovering it in ourselves. Searching is unattainable, but discovering is what we are. We’re discovering ourselves.

For me, one of the most important things is discovering my voice. I wanted to write and share uplifting things. I had a car accident a long time ago, and I was writing so much. I felt like my voice was there, and I started my first blog. But then life got in the way as a single mother, and other challenges came along the way. Transforming my life into a new career has been so exciting. It’s been the best 20 years of my life, despite the challenges.

One of my friends said, “You stopped searching.” She noticed that I’ve always been reading all kinds of books and maybe saw in me someone that was searching. But no, I’m discovering, constantly discovering something. Becky also said, “We’re discovering and unraveling our life, day by day into something new and different. Even if it looks exactly the same, you just wake up and discover something different, make a change here, or take a different route. Discovering and unraveling yourself is a matter of doing something different, making a choice to do something different, even something small, and then see what happens. One little small thing can lead to another.

I have all these ideas for the project and business I wanted to do, but it’s too much in my head. Right now, I just want to start off slow, go back to the basics, write my thoughts, share some inspirational thoughts, and then discover how my life will continue to unravel. I want to be surprised in the process.